My heart is heavy this morning, God. I am remembering my sweet friend, Missy and her baby boy she lost in November and my sweet cousin Eve, who lost her baby yesterday and delivered him very early this morning. –But then you probably knew that all ready.
I believe that you ARE; a loving God, a merciful God, a compassionate God, and a tender God. In all this I try to understand what you were thinking and why you allowed such things to happen- NO I am not wavering in my faith. I do believe that your plan is greater than I can understand, but the human side of me thirsts for comprehension of that plan. Which leads me to ask why; I know I am not supposed to do this? Why create a life and then take it before it has a chance to bless the world? Why strike a mother with such pain? Why leave a family feeling incomplete? Why leave a father wondering what it would have been like to play ball with his son? Why leave brothers and sisters without one more person to tease? –I know you say do not question.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; Proverbs 3:5
But, you are so complicated, Lord. My human mind can not grasp the tiniest part of your plan. Once again I know I don’t need to understand and I do trust you. I will not turn from you, but instead find comfort in the fact that you are in control of what I can not begin to comprehend.
Lord, I PRAISE you for the many blessing I have been given. Thank you so much for the rainbow I saw yesterday, a sweet promise from you. I praise you for loving me, loving Missy and loving Eve. I praise you for the life Missy and Eve were so blessed to carry. I praise you for the things I can not understand.
Lord, Jesus, I ask that you comfort Eve and her family as her wound is fresh. I will also ask that you continue to comfort Missy as she will always grieve for the child she lost. I ask that in your time you bless each of them with children. I ask that you continue to protect the child that I carry. Lastly, I ask if you might continue to show us glimpses of yourself through these storms and then when the time right- CALM this storm.
Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble, & he brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed. Psalm 107:28-29
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- Me- well: I love God! I love people! I love my family! I love my husband! I love being a mom! I love having twins! I love my friends! I love children! I love teaching! I love my church! I love red wine! I love watching my children play! I love summer! I love the beach! I love bonfires! I love the lake! I love to laugh! I have the most wonderful husband- he takes care of me and helps me out when I over commit myself. I love being a mom- twins are great! I hate when people say, "I don't know how you do it!"- I just do what needs to be done. At the end of the day our house may not be clean and the clothes may not get folded and put away, but everyone is safe, fed, and loved. My friends- oh you mean the people I used to hang out with, but never see anymore! Yeah, I love them too. I have learned that God brings all kinds of people into our lives. Some of those people are great friends while you are in school, some are great friends while you are in college, and some are great friends at work or church. Then there are the few- the special friends that stick around for a lifetime. I am so blessed to have so many lifetimers!!!
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