Several months back I was listening to 2 friends of mine discuss their feelings and fears about loving their 2nd child as much as they loved their 1st. One had just found out she was expecting and was wondering if she could love this new baby as much as she loved her 1st. The other friend had recently had her 2nd child and confessed it took her awhile to fall in love with her.
This conversation was odd for me for 2 reasons. One, my first children came in 2’s and second I was pregnant with my third. Throughout the rest of my pregnancy I wondered if I would immediately fall in love with my new baby or if I would have to wait for those feelings to come. I don’t know if it was because I had twins first so loving multiple children was never a question for me or if those feelings and fears are normal for some mothers and not for others, but from the moment Brennan entered the world I have been so in love with her just talking about her brings me to tears. She is the most beautiful baby, the most content, and loving creature I think I have ever known. I am so blessed that God choose me to be her mother and equally as blessed that God choose Brennan to be my daughter.
So to my sweet mama friends who might wonder if they can love their 2nd, 3rd, 4th, etc… as much as the 1st; absolutely. Never, never, never, question the depth too which God can stretch and expand your heart. I think if I had anymore children my heart would explode.
On a lighter note…
The month of August was filled to the brim for us so every moment I could get to just sit and hold this little Love of mine I did. She is growing like a weed and I am so afraid I will get too busy and forget or miss a special moment with her.
The 1st part of the month Ryan’s family from NH came to visit with us, which was interesting to say the least. (BTW, if you want to know what happens to your family when you don’t believe in or practice the principles of Jesus and vote for Obama just ask me!) The next week Ryan went out of town for a few days so my mom stayed with me and the girls. Her visit lead us to eventually give Brennan some cereal in a bottle at night. (I don’t think my mom believed me when I told her that Brennan literally nurses every 2 to 3 hours until she lived it.) The rest of the month was filled with fun visiting and visits from and to our friends in Jefferson and Buford, GA. and Auburn, AL.
But, perhaps the best part of the month was on Sunday. Our church baptizes down at the river or as Bree calls it, “playing in the hoochee” (that would be the Chattahoochee). Anyway, Brennan was dedicated on Sunday while we were at the river celebrating the baptisms of about 25 others. It was a beautiful day and the rain held off just long enough for us to enjoy lunch and fellowship with our family and friends.
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D. and I were just remembering how worried I was when I was pregnant with Mallory that I wouldn't love her as much as I loved Aubrey. How silly of me to worry about that. Mom hearts just expand as much as they need to I think. And we worry about so many unnecessary things! I love the pictures of your sweet girls. They are all just precious!
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